I am what I am …continued

Friday 7/3/14

I turned off all methods of communication on Thursday evening ready for my two and a half days of Silence. I explained to my daughter what I was doing and I want to publicly thank her for allowing me this time and space.

After dropping her at college on Friday I decided to go for a little drive , taking a note book and ‘The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success’ by Deepak Chopra with me. After pulling into the side of a little country track away from traffic and houses I began to read. It was a beautiful warm morning and getting a bit hot in the car so I wound down my window to let in the gentle breeze. Listening to a little bird singing and looking at the greenery around me, the tiny houses in the distance, these are a few thoughts that I wrote:

“Our purpose in life is to sing our own song, no matter whether anyone listens or not. The little bird sings and sings. It is free to fly where it wants. It does not have to concern itself with money, bills, possessions, life, death, love, friends. It just does what it was created to do.”

“As I sit here over looking fields, and listening to the birds through my open window it occurred to me that absolutely on one knows where I am. I have not got my mobile phone and right at this moment I can not contact or be contacted. How does it feel? A little unnerving if I let it, or FREE. Right here, right NOW, I am just ME.”

Aswell as remain silent and ‘sit in quiet contemplation’ at regular intervals I also decided to only drink Aloe Gel, Water and Aminotein shakes throughout the two and a half days to give my body a bit of a detox too.

Saturday 8/3/14

Today, I read ‘The Seven Spiritual Laws’ (again), ‘The Key to Living by the Law of Attraction’ by Jack Canfield and I started reading through all the bits I have highlighted throughout the MKMMA in ‘The Master Key’ by Charles Haanel. This really helped pull it together in my mind. One of our Master Key mentors, Trish, had talked about the wonderful experience she had when she did this task and I really wanted to feel the same things she described. The books I was reading highlighted the importance of writing out a list of my skills and talents, and the things I would love to do if money and time were no object, to give you some idea about your Dharma or Purpose in Life. I have done this before but decided to do it again.

I noticed a lot of the things I wrote are either happening or starting to happen, or will happen as I continue to follow my DMP (Definite Major Purpose…. we spent several weeks on this at the beginning of the MKMMA). I felt a sense of belief and trust in myself, in Universal Spirit and my strength and ability to live out my purpose. I wrote out a little statement releasing the things that have previously held me back, the ego and attachments to the past and the future. As I was reading through the ‘Master Key’ the following paragraph jumped out at me:

‘When you have learned to control yourself you will have found the ‘World Within’ which controls the world without; you will have become irresistible; men and things will respond to your every wish without any apparent effort on your part.’ (Haanel 4:14)

For two and a half days I have controlled myself to not speak, to limit my food intake, to ‘sit’ over and over and read inspirational books. Does this mean I have found the ‘World Within?’

Sunday 9/3/14

I ended my Silence at 1pm on Sunday and then went for a lovely walk at a place called Cardingmill Valley in Shropshire with my daughter. The sun was shining, my mind felt clear and my body refreshed.

Today’s reading from Marianne Williamson’s ‘A Year of Miracles’ was this………..

“I dedicate my work today to the furtherance of all things good.                                              Whether I am paid or not, whether I am working out in the world or planting my own garden, I dedicate whatever I am doing today to the uplifting of all things. May the activity of my mind and work of my hands be of service to the healing of the world.                                                         Today I remember that there is only one work: to be who I am capable of being, to do what I am capable of doing to make the world a better place. May my life be of use to something greater than myself, that I might feel the joy of being used.”

 This morning I woke to a message from my sister about a short course to help people wanting to run workshops, starting tomorrow evening. Perfect! I reviewed the information and signed up. A quick summary after my Silent time…… “I feel I have been on the most relaxing holiday ever. I feel lighter in spirit, encouraged, excited, yet calm and peaceful. I know I am not alone.”

Will I do it again?…….YES 

When you walk through a storm, Hold your head up high, And don’t be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm, Is a golden sky, And the sweet silver song of the lark
Walk on through the wind, Walk on through the rain, Though your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on walk on with hope in your heart, And you’ll never walk alone, You’ll never walk alone
When you walk through a storm, Hold your head up high, And don’t be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm, Is a golden sky, And the sweet silver song of the lark
Walk on through the wind, Walk on through the rain, Though your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on walk on with hope in your heart, And you’ll never walk alone, You’ll never walk
You’ll never walk, You’ll never walk alone.