Week 5 Awareness is…

…the beginning of change

hagridHave you ever made a decision, feeling at the time that it was definitely the right thing to do, only to find yourself anxious shortly after and questioning your decision? This is something that has happened to me during the past couple of weeks and it caused me to question why this happened.

About three weeks ago I came across a lovely business coaching mentor I felt I really resonated with. I checked out her website and applied for one of her free introductory coaching calls, and after our Skype meeting I felt we connected on a spiritual level and I thought the Universe had lead me to her as the next step along my path. Despite some minor reservations over my ability to meet the costs, I signed up for her 12 months coaching telling myself that if the Universe wanted me to pursue this path then it would help me find the means to pay for it too.

oh noHowever, as the days passed I found myself feeling increasingly uncomfortable and concerned. I was unable to focus on the tasks set which were only intended to help me. Something wasn’t right! Why was I feeling like this after my initial feeling of connection?

Over the last couple of years I have done a tremendous amount of learning and understanding of the importance of listening to my inner feelings. When something feels good then it is my spirit letting me know that I am on the right path. And if I feel bad my spirit is letting me know I am off track and need to course correct. So why did I have a positive feeling, quickly followed a week or so later by a negative feeling? Was this some sort of test? Did I misread my initial feeling? Or am I letting my current circumstances over rule my heart and cause me to worry, instead of trusting the Universe? After some soul searching I decided to cancel my coaching sessions for the time being as the financial pressure was preventing me from enjoying myself. I feel proud that I took action to stop something that was causing me distress, and relieved that my decision was accepted with love.

Negative-PositiveI realise now that my positive good feelings were towards the person, but my negative bad feelings about the financial commitment required at this time was actually guiding the decision I needed to make. I made my mind up based on the positive vibrations of meeting a kindred spirit instead of my inner gut feeling which was letting me know I was over committing myself financially at the moment. This burden became the stronger vibration over the following couple of weeks forcing me to re-evaluate my decision. Surface feelings of guilt and a little embarrassment at having to tell this lovely lady of my decision to cancel were heart felt, but the since overriding feelings of relief and calm have proved my inner guidance was right.

Making a decision in faith is part of following your heart’s desire. But, likewise, having the courage to make a different decision when you recognise an error is equally important. Life is a series of thoughts, decisions and actions. The worst thing is to make no decisions at all and allow yourself to just drift through life. Make your mind up!

‘….we are constantly creating and recreating ourselves; we are today the result of our past thinking, and we shall be what we are thinking today, the Law of Attraction is bringing to us, not the things we should like, or the things we wish for, or the things someone else has but it brings us “our own,” the things which we have created by our thought processes, whether consciously or unconsciously. Unfortunately, many of us are creating these things unconsciously.’ (Haanel 5:8)